countrygirl

Hi to all

well I got up this morning and weighed in and a smile appeared across my face as I looked down and saw that the number on the scale was  five less than last time. I can not tell you how happy that made me feel. I had a good week, not a perfect week, but perfect I will never be, so I will settle for good, actually I feel like I did great! I was sooo struggling the week before and felt so down about it, now I know that I can do it even when things get rough, and because I got through it (and I know there will be more) I feel as though I have accomplished something. I have not been doing too much exercising, I want to walk, some days it is sooo cold. I would love to find a video to learn country line dancing, something I have never done but wouldn’t mind trying, seems like it would be fun. If anybody knows of a good video for learning let me know I would appreciate it. I have the Richard simmons sweatin to the oldies dvd’s but cant really do them. I should just do what I can but it gets me down cause there was a time when I had them on vhs and I didn’t have a problem getting through them so now I just need to find something else. I have joined Weight Watchers so I have been spending a lot of time on the computer getting to know the points and which foods are filling foods and all that stuff. I joined on line as I am not ready to go to a meeting yet.It seems to have helped me though and tracking my food by writing down EVERYTHING is the best thing I could possibly to help myself!! I am trying to get in the correct amount of fruits/veggies/ dairy etc…. by using the percents listed on the back of everything that I eat, Its hard work to track all that but because I dont work, it really gives me something to focus on and do throughout the day, plus I am hoping it will teach me good habits so that when I do lose all the weight I want I will not gain it back. Now thats something Im really good at!!!! LOL

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Well here it is Friday night, I started out last week so confident and cheery. So proud of my first few days, and then ….well then I fell and rolled all the way down hill. I must say I do believe that I might have even gained some pounds! I got in a arguement with my daughter and she sort of ripped my heart out and there were tears and  heart achs from the nasty words  that were thrown around and I went into a full blown depression. I always tell myself that I wont let her get to me that way but she always does, and I always let it happen. I have not been doing any exercising or watching anything that I eat, I have managed to eat as much and as often as I have gotten the chance, and so here I sit, I finally got on here because of my friend Becky, as I checked my e mial this morning it said that I had gotten a new note from my buddyslim friend Becky, at first, I ignored it as immediately I felt ashamed and stupid, mostly ashamed. I deleted my mail in my inbox and then I went about my day, but I thought about it all day, I finally got on here a few minutes ago and decided to check in on everyone and put my shame aside and begin anew. No more poor me, or excuses, I just had a very bad week, even though I didnt do well, I am going to work on being able to pick myself back up when I fall, as I am worth it, and I need to learn to forgive myself. I will weigh in tomorrow and start tracking from my new weight whatever it may be. I am glad that all of my buddies are doing well and I am sorry that I was not a very good buddy this week, I will do better I promise.

God Bless my buddy Becky for sending me that note this morning and snapping me out of whatever I was in, even before I read it. Thank You! I really really needed that. It just goes to show that we all do need support and that it really does help.

Cheers to all my “loser” friends, Hope we all have a great week-end.

Well I guess I have taken the first step to a healthier new me! I am hopeful that I will find some new friends who I can support and who will support me as I know this is going to be a diffacult journey for me. I will wake up and get out of bed, (instead of wondering what time it is and how much longer I can lay there) and I will eat a healthy breakfast, I am going to try to plan my meals ahead of time so that I know what I am goin to eat ahead of time which hopefully will leave less room for me to “mess up”. I will have 1 serving of oatmeal with skim milk and some blueberries, I will use sweet n low to make it sweet and I will have a cup of coffee with two tablespoons of half and half. i am going to try to walk at least 20 minutes, and I also want to try to eat a little something every two hours , to keep my metabolism up and my spirits high. two hours after I have finished breakfast I am going  to have a nonfat yogurt. I have a case of bottled water I will keep a bottle near me at all times, hopefully that will help me drink what I need. For lunch I will have a Turkey sandwich, with lettuce and tomatoe in a ww pita bread with lowfat mayo and fat free cheese.  I will also have a glass of skim milk. Two hours after that I will have a cup of veggies, and maybe a salad with lettuce tomatoes and cucumbers and low fat dressing. For dinner I have a veggie burger on the menu with katchup and a serving of black beans . Two hours later I will settle in with an apple or an orange, and that will be it for me. I will try to go to bed early,and get plenty of sleep. I plan on  writing everything the night before so maybe that will leave less room for me to “Mess UP’  I will try counting calories as I go and keep that count going each day also. Hopefully at the end of the week I will not be dissapointed. Any thoughts from anyone? any tips or ideas? what do you think of my food choices, any tips, or ideas would be appreciated. If anyone wants to come along for the ride, theres always room. Wish me luck, God knows I will need it!